Post-attunement healing loss

[elfie]

Has anyone else ever lost their healing abilities after a Reiki attunement? Several years ago I used laying on of hands healing. It was probably the same energy as Reiki, though I hadn't been attuned yet, and at that point, I could get rid of cancer using laying on of hands. Later, on the advice of a friend, I took Reiki I, and after that, the healing channel seemed to close. Until just recently, I hadn’t been able to heal anything for several years after the attunement. Does anybody have any advice on this?

[♥Starlene]

Hi Elfie! I love the name !

I would venture to say that the healing you used to do pre-reiki was not really reiki at all but some sort of healing that came from within. Maybe like pranic healing, where it uses your own energy. Reiki healing energy comes from the universe, so it is different.

I dont really look at doing Reiki on someone as my healing them, but rather me just being the channel for the Reiki energy to flow through me and allow it to do what is is suppose to do, if that makes sense?

How did you use laying on of hands in the past? What did you do to draw that energy towards you?

I guess in my own thoughts on this,,, I dont excpet to heal anything by doing Reiki, rather, I just act like the channel for Reiki to do its work and I try to keep myself as clear of a channel asmy human body can be,,, and let it be... So I am confused a little on this too!

((hugs)) anyway!
and nice to meet ya!
Star

[Anamere]

Hi Elfie and many Welcomes to you!

AND I soooo LOVE your name too!



Awesomely Cute!

I had been doing "healing" too prior to reiki attunements. Sensing heat from cuts and such (I thought everyone did this yanno?) and placing my hands over the "hurt" and not really focusing energy just more of just the "intent" to try and make it better.

I would usually feel very drained after doing this. Or tired. Most of all I felt a responsibility to the person or some guilt if it didn't work.

Reiki attunements helped me to focus the energy and have a better understanding of where the energy comes from and how to "aid" with healing. Not "heal".

Also to learn that even though at times I may think it isn't there or isn't as strong or whatever. In fact there are times I don't feel the energy AT ALL. But the reciever has this amazing experience where they think my hands were touching them when I am not or they had a strong amount of energy flow. And I am left feeling nothing.

Other times. I feel like I'm on a Reiki "high" I have so much energy flowing.

So keep this in mind too. Just because we sometimes think it isn't there... doesn't mean it isn't.

Also, what Star shared is sooooo true! We are just's funnels for the energy. You may have heard of Biblical references to Jesus being a "Cup". Or in Buddhist Koan which asks the monk "did you clean your bowl" a reference to keeping the mind clear of negative thought or un-truth. We are like that bowl and keeping it free of un-necessary thought is important. Although I know this is sometimes easier said that done.

I believe it is just "thoughts" which cause us to believe we are in control of others fate. And "heal" them. It isn't we who heal... it is the reciever who heals themselves. (I know I confuse myself sometimes and it's dizzying so bare with me because WE (energy workers) are just "Vessels" for that energy.

We are open and clean funnels to this un-ending energy of Light. Negative energy and thought doesn't exsist in it, Fear doesn't exsist in it... it is only Love and only Light and only Free.

Reiki just focuses the energy to go where ever the individual may need it. We cannot claim responsibility for this.

I know I've written alot here. I apologize. But a suggestion might be to check for other sensations you might be feeling. I've also go through periods of feeling heat, cold, magnetic pulses or other sensations from "Reiki". It varies and it's important to remain open to what you might feel. It could be that what you were feeling before has changed or intensified and you're experiencing different sensations but not recognizing them as Reiki. If that makes sense.

Just some thoughts.


Much Love and Light to you!
Anamere

[reikienergyheals]

We are channels for Reiki energy to move through. It is not up to us to heal. It is up to the one who needs healing to heal themselves. "Healer, heal thyself."

[elfie]

Thanks for the warm welcomes :-)

I suppose "heal" was probably a poor choice of words on my part and I apologize. I never actually used my own energy to heal anything. I always sort of pulled the energy from the world around me and let it flow down my arms like water down a pipe. I do basically the same thing with Reiki, except that I pull the energy through the crown shakra instead. It's not that I don't feel any energy, I feel plenty of that, it's simply that I don't see any results in who I'm treating. I generally do animals as opposed to people, so they can't really tell me if they're having any sensations, but they don't seem to get any better.
In particular, we have a lot of animals that end up with cancer (no, it's not something in the water, it was an excess of rabies shots), and currently we have a cow, Comet, who my mother wants someone to shoot. While it would put her out suffering, I think it would be a very traumatic experience for everyone involved (my family loves cows like most people love cats and dogs), especially seeing as we just lost a dog to cancer as well. Unable to help the dog, I wanted to try and help Comet, but as it stands, I can't seem to channel enough energy to even ease Comet's pain let alone reverse her cancer. I suppose it's possible that she simply doesn't want to be healed, but if that's I case, then I seem to run into an awful lot of animals who don't want to get better.
As my Reiki teacher has passed on, I've been unable to discuss this with her. I'm simply wondering if perhaps the original energy I used and the Reiki are canceling each other out for some reason, and I can't figure out how to make them work together.

[reikienergyheals]

We are not in control of much, I'm afraid. It could be a lesson in recognizing just that because you are being faced with it in many examples. Another thought that came to me is that I was attuned to reiki and was channeling it through my hands before I knew what it was or had heard the word. It was such a strong feeling I almost called the doctor to ask what was wrong with my hands! LOL Then, I ended up on this path and when I first consciously channeled reiki, it was like "oohhh, so that's what that was!" Perhaps you've been doing reiki all along? We don't always feel anything at all when we practice and that doesn't mean nothing happened. Hang in there.

[Anamere]

Awww that breaks my heart. I Love cows! I don't have one as a pet but I just Love cows.

I'm sorry to hear about the losses you've been experiencing. Maybe these animals are drawn to you because sadly there is nothing else that can be done... they know this. And you Are helping them to feel better through this process.

Some reiki practitioners are drawn to this naturally. I have one friend who plays a harp at the bedside of terminally ill patients. She was just lead to do this.

Something to think about.

We all know death is a part of life. But it doesn't make it any easier on those of us who remain.

I will send Reiki some Reiki hugs to you and reiki your situation.



My prayers go out to you that this will be received with Love and ease.


I am interested to know what part of the country you are in. I'm in Indiana and in the Southern part of our state there is an increase in the cases of Autism in children and certain Cancers in animals and people. Many think it is the water. Say chemicals that have been dumped. So... curious.

[♥Starlene]

Hi Elfie,,, I just like saying your name hehehehe....
I think that you are doing something for the animals, and sometimes Reiki isnt suppose to heal. That just how it is,,, if it is not written in the path of the animal to be healed from this particular thing,,, then nothing you do is going to heal it. Reiki will help comfort the animal though, you know?

There is a lady here that is one of our moderators, shes had several cats come to her and pass away, I think thats something that she has a gift for. Helping the animals before they make their transition into the other side...

As far as your energy,,, Ive done qigong and with that you pull energy in from all around you, through the earth or the crown, and then you use the energy to heal yourself or direct it elsewear.... It feels a little like Reiki but its not,,, so maybe thats something you were doing before getting attuned to Reiki,,, just in your own way, you know? Either way, I have never personally had anyone tell me that they were not able to channel energy after getting an attunement, so I dont know!

I love cows too, something Anamere and I have in common with one another actually hehehe... I will send you lots of Reiki and huggies your way too!

((hugs)) ((hugs)) ((hugs)) ((hugs)) ((hugs)) ((hugs)) ((hugs)) ((hugs))
Star

[Christine]

Hi Elfie,

I think there is an important difference between healing and curing.

Most of us think they are the same but they aren't...we're used to going to the doctor getting a pill for something and curing or eliminating it (the disease).

Reiki and other types of energy work heal--make us whole. That wholeness is not always related to physical cures.

Here's a story from one of my Reiki clients (with some details changed for privacy). This client started to come for Reiki because he was not physically improving after an injury. Although under the care of a doctor, he wanted to see if Reiki would help him heal faster. I explained how Reiki heals--supporting our body, mind and spirit so that we can receive the type of healing we need. Well, he was open to it, so he came for a few treatments. The injury did not "get better" in fact he now has to have surgery; however, he's feeling so much better--really getting in touch with a lot of emotions and energy for the first time ever and realizing that he needs to care for himself. This is huge. Had the physical injury been cured he would not have had these important insights.

With another client, they might come one time and feel complete physical healing, it really depends.

Before giving a Reiki treatment I silently say an affirmation that I trust everything is working in Divine Order. If I feel myself starting to get wrapped up in what the outcome will be, I try to step back and focus on compassion for the PERSON not my trying to fix the PROBLEM. The person is what needs to be made whole. The problem might need to be cured too but that's not what Reiki is for.

As for working with animals, I highly recommend the book Animal Reiki which talks about how to get intuitive impressions from animals while treating them.

Welcome to the board!

I will pray and send Reiki for your cow friend

Christine

[elfie]

hmm, I guess that's a possibility I never considered, animals on their way out being drawn to me to be comforted before their transitions. I was just kinda caught up in the whole curing aspect of it, and thought I was failing miserably as each animal passed away. That actually makes me feel so much better, that I might have at least been doing something to comfort them, despite the fact that they still died. I'll definitely have to look for the Animal Reiki book.
In response to Anamere, I'm in backwoods Upstate NY. As far as I know, no one has been dumping chemicals in water around here. There are a few farmers around us that spray (we never do!), but we don't share any kind of public water for chemicals to have been dumped in. The cows have their own ponds, and the dogs, like us, drink out of a dug well that my mom witched many years ago.
We used to use conventional vets, and they were big on having animals vaccinated against rabies every year, and in the case of the dogs, they wanted them to have boosters every time they caught a woodchuck. One dog ended up with eight rabies shots in one year, needless to say, she died of cancer as well. My grandfather had kept cows for years and never vaccinated them, but when we took over, we gave them rabies shots at the urging of the vets, and a few years later, several started developing eye cancer. We now use a holistic vet who agrees it was probably the rabies shots, as she believes one shot to be good for 10 years to a lifetime. She said more than that can cause auto-immune problems, like the eye cancer. She's been treating them herbally and was able to reverse the cancer in two cows whose cancer had not progressed very far, and for that we are grateful every day.
Thanks for all the well wishes to Comet, I'm sure she appreciates them. I'll keep treating her and if she passes, it'll still be hard, but I won't feel quite so bad now. Thank you all so much, my frustration is melting away. ;D

[Anamere]

I just have to say Elfie, that I'm also so very happy you are here at this forum with such a caring and giving group of people. It's just such a blessing for me personally to be here I'm so happy when new friends come in and we can offer something to help. That is such a blessing too.



That said. It's very interesting what you shared about the animals getting vaccinations and feeling this might be a tie to the ailments that followed.

Many vaccine companies used Therimisol as a preservitive for vaccines. They "say" they have discontinued this practice. Therimisol is Mercury based. Another interesting thought to add to that is that in Indiana here we have Mercury levels so high in our lake, pond and river waters that we cannot eat the local fish. They have a catch and release law. The fish here can make you sick. They know this so created this 'rule' for that reason.

It just causes me to think more about this. This is also the 3 time in the past week I've had a conversation about illness and vaccines. Something I'm noting just for personal reasons as I'm trying to figure all that out myself.

But this is a topic that is widely discussed in the Autism community. Vaccines and the preservitives used in them and vaccinating children with up to 7 vaccines in one visit at the 18 month well baby visits. There was even a congressional hearing for the vaccine "issue". I could go on and on about this but, just thought I would share my thoughts. I didn't really have a point ...

[nathangela]

Hello Elfie!I love your name too!Welcome !!!!!!!!!!!!

[saffy]

There are many wonderful people on this forum as you can see. Everyone is here to support, answer questions or just talk.

I really hope you enjoy your stay here...

Oh, yea, just incase you didn't hear this before, you name is really cute.

Elsie..yep.

Oh, I love cows too. In fact I live in "Cow Town" Columbus, Ohio.

Enjoy.

[Christine]

Comet...what a cool name. I will be sending her some Reiki.

I love cows!! And upstate NY is cool...I am from Western Mass. originally, one town over from the NY border. It's very beautiful out there.

[elfie]

Okay, I can't take credit for the name Elfie, my sister came up with it. It's been her nickname for me the last couple of years. But Comet's name came from the fact that she and her twin sister were born a week before Christmas so we named them Comet and Cupid after the reindeer in the poem.

This is such a wonderful forum. I haven't had a chance to do a lot of writing, but I've been doing a lot of reading, and it's so chock full of information and so many wonderful people.

And, Anamere, don't even get me started on Therimisol or vaccines in general for that matter. I cringe every time I think of what they did in Texas forcing the administration of the HPV vaccine on all 12 year girls. A vaccine which was of course brought to us by Merck, the root of all evil. And somehow, I don't think it was merely a coincidence that the Texas governor who mandated the vaccine received several thousand dollars from Merck.

[saffy]

Glad you came...

[Anamere]

Meee tooo! Very glad you came! And we have a new friend with a cute name like Elfie!

And I'm feelin' ya on the whole vaccine thing. Not to mention the Pharma Co stuff. I tooo could go on and on. Doctors getting "kick backs" for prescribing certain med's EVEN if they make people MORE ill.


I know the list goes on and on. Trying to not get started.